Colin's Thoughts For The Day

Prom Is Go!

2009-06-05T03:14:13Z

The Awesomeness of our prom tomorrow can be expressed entireley through 2 pictures.

BLAM

BLAM

The outfits are as following.

Raine- Pinstripe gangster tux, Pinstripe Fedora, lime green tie, and the lime green shoes and CANE, spray painted above.

Kim- Slinky black dress, slinky long white gloves, a 50's flapper hair curlio and a six foot long motherfucking cigarette filter.

Wolfy- A vinyl black and white fetish dress, and Black goggles with silver swirls in the middle.

Me- Brown pinstripe tux with a sweet brown vest, a loveley corsage, and the hat depicted above. Fuck yeah.

We are gonna be the fucking, coolest cats around.
Forever.

HAPPY JOURNAL...WUT?

2009-05-18T15:58:46Z

OK,
So theres this cool thing where, my mom was like
"OSHIT NEEDS NEW CAR!"
And then my dad was like;
"OSHIT do we REALLY want to drive Colin to UCCC every day next year!?"
And then as a result I was like;
"FUCK YEAH CAR!"

So My mom got this bitchin new hybrid that talks to you like mother fuckin robby the robot,
and my dad got her shitty old car, and I got HIS sweet fucking car.
You know
The Subaru
With the 4 wheel drive and the ceiling windows and the goggles hanging off the rearview mirrors?
That ones new.
And the back is sooo big that you can sleep in it, 2x2 snuggled up. YUM.

So i have a car.

Upsides.
-CAR!
-CAR!
-CAR!
-CAR!
-CAR!

Downsides.
-Paying for gas
-started to rust in places
-spedometer takes naps sometimes
-ignition sticks

But the downside for YOU guys, is that now im gonna start demanding gas money when appropriate.
IM POORsies.

Car.

OH ALSO
Car needs a name.
It was Susan when it was my dads but im not sure it fits it anymore.
It must meet or beat my Penis name. It is equally important.

Meet or Beat, DON QUIHOTE

MEET OR BEAT
GO.

ps.
LOL I said meat and beat in context with PENIS.
HUHUHUH

Hired

2009-05-04T20:31:14Z

SIT'ing fooorrrr

Woodstock Day 1
Unison 1
Unison 2
Unison 3

Crap.
IM SORRY TAY!
Im going to try to work out Advanced and Penultimate. Hope hope hope hope hope they work out.
I really need Wayfinder to go off with out a hitch this year. Last year was a disaster.
I worked intro, which Raine was at, so it wasnt too bad, but i was worried about her the whole time. And between the worry and the work, it didnt leave much space for my friends. And i needed them.
Then Advanced Camp I was doing sets and props, which is insane for advanced, AND I day camped it, for certain reasons. So between the worrying and the work and the 9 oclock junior license curfew, it left even LESS time for the friends whom i needed and stressed me out on top of it.
I had to leave in the middle of Hannah's game, cause my dad had to pick me up, and he had been waiting for like an hour and he just fucking yelled at me the whole way back, I felt like shit for doing that to him.

I still need my friends really bad. I dont know how im going to do this. It HAS to work out this year.
Shit.

Pajamagrams are expensive...

2009-02-12T04:28:28Z

So for some reason life decided it was just going to take a giant shit on my face.
Just pull down its pants and pinch a loaf right on my lovley countenance.
Let me give you a synopsis of my day.

So Both my jewlery teacher and drawing and painting teacher where absent today.
So i couldnt get ANY work done on my jewlery piece, and then i got Ms. G isnt there so i cant talk to her about stuff like usual.

So at that point i decided to go down to Ms McCabe's so i could upload some pictures that i took for my Digital photo class onto the computer. Unfortunatley the card didnt fit in the card reader and the cords available didny fit the camera, so it was late another day.
Then i saw Ms Foss later and whent to show her the pictures to show her that i actually did the assignment, and as I was showing them to her, the camera decided it was going to delete every picture on the camera.

Now heres the fun part, this camera belongs to Raine, and had a lot of important memories still on it. Or did, untill i fucked it up some how. So she hated me for the whole day, understandably.

So shes pissed at me as we walk to the car at the end of the school day, so im walking kind of ahead of her, because i felt uncomfortable, and i slip on a patch of ice and fell on my face and slamed my fingers between my books and the ground and scraped my knee and got soaking wet, and dry skin itches and im cold now too.

So now Im upset and limping and Raine is pissed at me, and im still walking ahead of her cause im a wuss.

And i get to my car to find, A PARKING TICKET hurray.

So, 20 dollar fine, no bigs right?

Wrong, im on ACD for rear ending a Hummer coming home from the Dutchess County fair a couple months ago, which means i cant get any tickets or anything or i get the full fine and points on my license.

Great.

Needless to say im freaking out, Raine is still pissed.

So we went to Raine's house, and i call home to let them know,
My mom picks out and immediatley starts bitching at me. Because thats REALLY what i need right now. So i hang up. She calls back later and bitches some more. I dont listen.
Get home around 9 to my parents fighting again, i know its because of me. All this shit i bring on the family is stressing everyone out. I can tell they are starting to resent me for the late nights and dodged engagements. That feels great, especcially with my mom treating me like shit everytime she gets a chance now a days. Thats my fault too. I feel like scum because im acting like it.

Then everyone went to sleep and im on the computer, and now cant find Raine's hat. She says its not at her house, and i start to freak, because if I ruin anything else for her im going to fucking kill myself. Turns out that it WAS at her house, whatever.
Shit man.

Oh but at least the ACD wont be violated, cause the car is registered in my dads name, so they have no way of knowing it was me. Still 20 bucks. Kinda wanted to spend it on Raine for Valentines Day. Hopefully my parents take pity on me and wait like a week before my paychek comes in. Doubt it. Really wanted to do somthing for her too.

^{pajamagrams are expensive :C}

And now to top it all I made her cry. Nice job Colin. Go fuck yourself.

Oh and now Wolfy did somthing dumb. I SAW WHAT YOU DID WOLFY. Cmon.

I should really go to bed before i fall into a deep depression and hang myself or somthing.
Uug.

^{pajamagrams are expensive}

DA WEEKENDZ!

2009-01-12T02:28:01Z

Yay!
I had a great weekend i did. Yesyes!
So So so.

FRIDAY
Went to school, blah blah blah, started out sucky, ended ok.
Then after school, i came home with Raine, and we spent some time together before jumping in the car and going to see....
THE TALE OF DESPERAUX!
Which was adorable and great. Roscuro was my favorite. I might make a mousey character now yep yep.
Then after Desperaux we went to APPLEBOOS!
And i ordered a delicious boigow, and Raine got an appetizer thingy and we had just enough money to pay for it all YAY! Numnumnum.
Then we went back to the mall and had JUST enough money left over forrrr SMOOTHIES! Smoothies for dessert YUM! Cause Raine had wanted a smoothie all week and i was like OMIGOSH MALL SMOOTHIES AND THAT WAS NICE!
Then we went back to Raine's house and watched some silly TV for a while. That was fun.
Then we got undressed and snuggled for a while
And then we did some...other stuff
and then snuggled again for a while!

SATURDAY
Woke up next to Raine's warm body. Yes very nice! And warm! Inty kept trying to grab her boobs while she was sleeping so i battled him for them. I defeated him by smacking him in the face until he rolled over and went back to bed.
Fatty.
Then we got up and snuggled more for like an hour and then we got up and put clothes on and went to my house where i got all gussied up for a Job interview and Raine said i looked handsome and i said no but ok.
And then I drove to the big ol Bank of America place, and i got lost in the parking lot but then i met a Security Guard named Bill and we as all like
"WEEWOO THAT WAY *POINTS*"
And then the old dudes was all like,
"Manpower, blah, blah, blah, I HAS A JOB FOR YOU!"
And so now i have a job! YAY! Then i had to do a fingerprint thing and a background check, so i got to hang with Bill again while he inked my fingies and such. And he plays World of Warcraft now but he doesnt want to anymore cause his Girlfriend is playing now and kicking his ass. He also drives a girl car aparently.
Then i went got back in the car to head to my house, and their was snow EVERYWHERE! 209 was backed up so bad, but no one was in the Left lane so i was like
"BITCH FOUR WHEEL DRIVE! *VROOOM*"
And i got home and Raine and I ungussied, Or I did at least, and then my parents went to a party so we used the opportunity to get REALLY ungussied, If ya know what i mean. And we jumped in the hot tub! YAY!
REGUSSY!
Then we went to Raine's house and we watched tv for a while and then we got ungussied if you know what i mean YET ANOTHER TIME and snuggled up under the blankets together, and watched like, an episode of Made, and then Real World. But it was like a new Real World and it was actually pretty good yknow?

SUNDAY
Woke up again next to Raine's beautiful and warm body which is always very nice. Then i got up and made
OMLETES!
In this Super Panini press that was on TV called the...
EXPRESS 101!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My gramma gave it to me for christmas!
Thennn we played...
SORRY! CARD REVENGE!!!!
Then we went out and sleded!
Then we came in and drank hot Cocoa and played...
THINKBLOT!
And transparently Troy is a master cook and he made us french fries from scratch and potato chips to eat while we played. YUM!
Then Raine and I went into her room and ungussied if you know what i mean for a third time and got under the covers to snuggglle.
Then we did some...fun stuff.
And then we snuggled more and then we made tacos and then I HAD TO GOOOO!
And now...
Im typing this and...
i miss her. :(

colin_mchatter @ 2008-11-02T22:05:00

2008-11-03T03:08:09Z

Dear Puddlejump kid,
I love you more than you could ever possibly know.
You are everything to me. And even though it might seem like, all the shit going on around both of us makes me angry at you, know that ill stick with you, and that i could never be angry at you for such a selfish thing. I love you so much. And I always will.

Love Always,
Lovley

PS. Thank you so much for our anniversary weekend. You will never know how much it meant to me.

colin_mchatter @ 2008-09-24T22:59:00

2008-09-25T02:57:55Z

Yo check it fo realz.

This is my metalworking project at the moment.

BRASS COGGLES.

Ive been wanting to make my own goggles forEVER now.
So i was like, WOH METALWORKING I CAN DO IT FOR FREE AND GET CLASS CREDIT!

So heres some pics yo. (heads up, multiple attempts to resize have ended in failure!)

New room and shit.

2008-09-22T02:40:20Z

So
I rearranged my room
Its fucking awesome.
Its soo freakin cool.
The Fung-Shui is like fucking SPOT ON.
My rooms all like COME ON IN AND TAKE A SEAT ON THIS COUCH.
wait, ill make an animated .gif of it ok, just gimme one god damned second will you!?

Highlights to look for:
-Gnomes
-awesome chair
-tv
-couch
-bitchin' bed nook
-lamp with shit
-desk
-did i mention couch.

This weekend was great.
Kim came over Friday, we're all excited about the apartment.
We rented PS. I love you and we all cried like retards. I love that i have friends outside of Wayfinder i can do that with now.
Then after Kim left Raine and I watched Gotham night, which is like the Animatrix batman style
The ANBATMAN. It was awesome. We left the fan on and it got freezing and i got a cold in the morning but then Raine made me soup for my tummy and got me ice pops for my throat and we watched
"An American Tail: Fievel Goes West". NOSTALGIAAAAA.

I'm talking to Hillaroo right now and shes really cool. I almost forgot how cool she is that's how cool PUNCTUATION WHERE IS IT.<-----there!

In school related news.

I'm pretty happy with all my classes.
I'm taking 4 art classes.
4 art classes.
4 art classes.

So far jewelry/metalworking is my favorite.
I made a bracelet. And I made this sweet pendant for Roket out of nickle. Its like a wrench with like in the wrench part, his interrobang R.
In the process of being made. Steampunk Cog Goggles.
COGGLES
I will being going on lots of field trips this year with my Chemistry for Artists class, which is cool.
First one is this Wednesday, to like museums and such. That will be sweet.

In other other news.
Abney Park is really cool.
But i cant tell if i like them bacause of their music or because they are a steampunk band.
OH WELL

I really love Raine guys.
I'm so excited to live with her.

Ummmm I think that's it! I should update this more!

::EDIT::

Something i found interesting:

supergir442 (10:46:29 PM): we should talk more yes
hmilton@mac.com (10:46:30 PM): <3
hmilton@mac.com (10:46:31 PM): yes.
supergir442 (10:46:32 PM): <3
supergir442 (10:46:34 PM): good.
supergir442 (10:46:47 PM): Consensual comunication is the best
supergir442 (10:46:56 PM): Rape talk sucks
hmilton@mac.com (10:47:04 PM): haha
hmilton@mac.com (10:47:08 PM): I know too well what you mean
supergir442 (10:47:14 PM): its like
supergir442 (10:47:16 PM): ouch
supergir442 (10:47:19 PM): dry conversation
supergir442 (10:47:21 PM): OKOKO

Normally i dont think twice about saying ignorant and senseless things like that because im SOCIALLY RETARDED.
But this time i felt like a real jackass! Which i suppose is a good thing.
Anyway.
GOODNIGHT!

The 14th

2008-08-15T17:42:02Z

It was my birthday! It was fun.
Raine woke me up at midnight and wished me a really good happy birthday.
And it was really good.
She invote Rei, Wolfy, Rob, and Kim and Eilis. But Kim and Rei didnt come. But then Jack and Vee showed up and that was pretty sweet, and so we went to that abandoned sculpture park by Rab's house, and the grass was like HUUUUUUUUUGGGGEEE.
And we looked at the exmortis church and stuff, and then we went back to Raines so Rei didnt show while no one was there but then she never did run on sentences.

Wolfy drew me a picture of me being scary with Abraham.
Raine drewed me sum Roket! Which inspired me to do an animation of him.
Rab drew me Willis bein creepazoid with an IOU.

Im sad Rei and Kim didnt come though.
They should draw me a picture as penance.

Yeah...

2008-07-06T00:59:44Z

I want to use my sister's expensive acne cream on my pimply ass.

FUCK YOU

2008-06-28T03:06:00Z

Fuck I'm awesome.
I passed the Math B.
And the course.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Eat shit.
Im awesome.

The Grapes Tasted like Winter.

2008-06-24T20:18:33Z

Today....
Today was filled with the most serene little oddities and feelings.
This morning i woke up with a fever, so i dropped Raine off at school for her tests and wished her good luck. On the way home i saw some Wayfinder folk on the road, and i stopped the car, got out and gave them all hugs, and headed back home for some sleep.

When i woke up the fever was gone, and i headed downstairs for some breakfast.
When i opened the freezer there was snow frozen all over everything in there. But instead of my usual; "Who the fuck left the fridge open", A wonderful feeling welled up inside me, and i smiled. Which i realized is something I rarely do when Im by my lonesome.

I proceeded to scrape and eat all the snow out of the walls of my new found winter box.

The grapes tasted like winter.

After that i went upstairs and sniped the end in the face-head. My mission complete, i retired for a nap. When i awoke, i realized it was 3:08. I had to pick up Puddlejump 8 minutes ago. I was dressed and out the door by 3:09. I jumped in the car and got to the field house by 3:12 speeding the whole way, but no one was there. I checked my voicemail and found Raine had gone to hang with some friends.

As i was leaving the school i heard; "Hey Butthead!" and turned around to see Raine running at me from the car i just passed. She gave me a kiss and then told me that No, the doctors appointment was tomorrow. Its only Tuesday silly. Which put me in a much better state of mind. That one that i found inside my freezer.

As I was stopped at a stop sign on Wilbur, i suddenly had the strangest urge to take a detour. And i was so glad i did. I found such a nice little neighborhood, all the houses where unevenly spaced out, and there where woods and little valleys and streams all over. And ivy, EVERYWHERE. It really was beautiful. I don't think i went more than 5 miles the whole time for fear of missing something.

My little detour dumped my just a little farther down Wilbur, and i was ready to head home, when i had that strange urge to DO again. What i did this time was head straight to the Eddyville bridge. Where i parked in front of the overgrown metal gate in front of the old abandoned house Wolfy and I found yesterday. And there was that urge again, to go inside.
So i did. Inside the old house, all the doors and windows where gone. I passed some beer bottles, and a needle, probably from some druggies. And i turned around, and there, in the corner, where a 4 foxes! An older one (which i assumed to be the mother) and 3 pups. And i just stood there, and the mother fox and I locked eyes, Which i KNEW was a bad idea, cause you never lock eyes with a wild animal, but nothing happened. Then she turned and walked away with her three pups.

After that i was in quite a DO mood. And i DID want some ice cream, so i headed to Boice's and got a smoothie. Then i passed the library on the way home and went to look for Hillaroo's most favorite books, they didn't have them, but thats ok.

I can still feel a kind of silky veil of serenity over me.

Maybe it was just the fever.

colin_mchatter @ 2008-06-09T16:05:00

2008-06-09T20:07:18Z

Yeah thats pretty me a lot. Tell me if you think so!

They also summed up Raine and I pretty well. http://www.ipersonic.com/type/compare.php?code=hi-gt-3-c4-a3-c2-c1

Wolfy and I... not as well.
http://www.ipersonic.com/type/compare.php?code=ed-gt-1-b4-c3-b2-b1

Do it do it.
I wanna know if were compatible!

SHUT UP I KNOW I NEVER POST LEAVE ME ALONE

colin_mchatter @ 2008-04-22T21:00:00

2008-04-23T01:10:28Z

I STOLED FROM WOLFU!

TECHNOLOGY
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
http://fc05.deviantart.com/fs24/f/2008/019/d/8/Winter_somethings_by_Vusnax.png

Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
3. Kinda. Mine is only hooked up to my Playstation.

BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
RIGHTO

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Ive had teefs pulled? Hair ripped?

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
GRARBAGE CANSES

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
YES!

BULLSHITOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Nop, cause then i would end up wasting the rest of my life like.... waiting for it to come, then probably trying to stop it, and end up dying anywhoo.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Colin O'Razzleflamm

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
Black? Green?

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
YES. YEP. LOTS. NO EWWW YOUR GROSS, NOT THAT!

DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
Fuck yeah. I kissed a Ike for a dollar!

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
Maybe? Only if i could use it to buy myself a rocket pinkie.

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
YEAH. IN A FUCKING INSTANT

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
Yes. I have a cute pener.

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000?
Yes. I would cry. But it would be worth it.

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
No. I dont think i could live with myself.

DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
cell forns pens and pencils.

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
Only like, Once a year..

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Bofe.

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
Stand, mostly.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
One.

LASTOLOGY
Q: Last person who texted you?
Eilis

Q: Last person who called you?
Stan, to gimme her fone numberrrrr

Q: Person you hugged?
Raine DUHS!

FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
7.

Q: Season?
RAHRAHRAH FALL

Q: Color?
PURPLE NURPLES

CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
My cat.

Q: Mood?
Anxious?

Q: Listening to?
HELLLSSSS KITCHHEEENNNNN

Q: Watching?
That one.

Q: Worrying about?
I smell like butts, and also college, and also i have a headache.

Q: Wearing?
What I always where. Every. Single. Day.

RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning?
To kiss Raine on the facehead

Q: What can you not wait to do?
Wayfinder this summer, and also AC, and also other stuff.

Q: Do you smile often?
Yes?

Q: Are you a friendly person?
I like to think so. Even though i am often a prick face nigrabutt.

Ajkbfkjsnd Pictures lots of pictures pictures.

2008-02-27T00:35:06Z

This is a picture journal.
Cause i said i would do one.
Didnt I?
Whatever.

Nanananana.
These are some character concepts for a comic loosely based on the members of QUAP.

Heres Penny

This one is Vee

This one is Ben!

Heeeerreees some more development of Ben's Characterhttp://i194.photobucket.com/albums/z55/Crumpet-nazi/4.jpg

I figured out how to kinda sorta draw decent canine face ons!
Here's Raine!

And here's Wolfy McEgg-Head. I stopped working on this when i looked at her inked cranium...

Heres one of Rab, I kinda like how it came out a little more Chameleon than Dog. Although, i fucked up inking the tail, so i gave up.http://i194.photobucket.com/albums/z55/Crumpet-nazi/7.jpg

Ive also been working on my female anatomy, heres some figures.

Boobs too low, torso too long.

A little better. WHATS A BACK DIMPLE!?

My study of Female anatomy also resulted in a new character. I think her name is Thoth, but im not sure yet.

I do know however, that she is usually undressed when she's alone, due to her...peculiar heritage. I had a bunch more of her, but way to many to scan in. Just enough so you could see her progression.

Fixed the boobs a bit here i think.

Started drawing a skull, turned into another idea for a new character. I rather like it. Im not sure yet if you'll see anymore of him.

This is most likely one of the final incarnations of the character tentatively named Thoth. This was a result of trying to develop her into a character for a Deviant Art club, but she would only let me change her so much. We are both pleased with the result though.

That was all in about a couple of days. So yay! Im drawing a lot.
Sketchbook progress;

In other news;
Today in photo, Ms Foss and i spent the entire time experimenting and going through all the unopened photo stuff in the closet. The result? Well we found this sweet website that will actually print a photo for you on a wrapped canvas for like 20 dollars. Which is NICE. And make prints for you as well.
ANNNNDDDD
She gave me THESE!

Its a close-up set!
Basically like... 3 lenses which screw on like UV filters and allow for great macro shots!
We screwed them onto her zoom lens and you could literally make out the separate threads in my jeans.
Only problem... it didnt fit on my telephoto. *sadfaaacce*
It does however fit on my 35mm. Although its significantly less impressive.
Im going to ask if i can borrow her zoom lens tomorrow... except snow day. *MORE SADFACE(kinda)*
So ill ask Thursday.

OH and i forgot to do my driver's ed homework. And i dont remember what it was. Shit. I should take care of that.

THATS ALL!

Love.

NEGLEEEEECCCCCT my LJ

2008-02-26T00:44:04Z

My LJ. I neglect it.

ANYWHOOS!

Life lately... rollercoaster.
UP AND DOWN AND UP AND DOWN!
Its starting to get hella tiring.

Letssss start withhhh......
This weekend? Ok this weekend sounds good.
Well on Thursday, Vince and Crystal where supposed to come and chill so Raine and I could make up for missing Crystal's birthday party.
Raine woke up with a hella fever, and Vince had car trouble anywombles. So that didnt happen.
But then Friday we had a snowday, which was nice. And it like snowed all day.
And we ordered like $10832589241324.50 worth of chinese food, which we finished devouring the next day. That was nice.
Ummmmm
Saturday.... uneventful?
Except for that we figured out Raine is coming with us to Florida. Which is sweet.
Then Sunday, Raine, my mom and I went to a play at PDS, called "The Yellow Boat". I cried. Im not gunna lie.

OH ALSO ALSO
Didja hear!?
DIDJA!?

I got a Daily Deviation on Deviant Art.
Woot.
That was a surprise, though not all together unwelcome.

Thats the piece.
Im still getting a steady flow of favorites on it.
Its getting kind of annoying actually.

Also THIS. Which im pretty proud of.

what is it!? A hand or a foot!?
IDUNNO!

BWEH!
Ive been tossing a character around in my head, and down on paper, but i havent scanned in any pictures of her, and i dont feel like it now.
I really like her though. I feel like i connect, although i dunno why. We have just about zero in common.
Im sure soon you'll see a lot more of her soon.
Maybe ill start posting my doodles like twice a week or somthing. Iunno.

Also... Sorry for the big pictures. Im too lazy to resize them now.

Raaaaiine
Raine Raine.
Raine and I have been going through some turbulence lately. But i think everything is all right now.
I love that women.
Straight up.

-Colin

colin_mchatter @ 2008-02-05T18:20:00

2008-02-05T23:21:47Z

omnomnomnomnom.

things
Blah.

Update. This time, Its not a bad one.

2008-02-05T21:17:17Z

Wow, ok.
So yet again, i neglect this. I post... what? 2 times a month?
Whatever.
ANYWHOO
MY LIFE UPDURTED!

UUUUPPPDAATTTESSS
1. In case you didnt know, Raine has been living with me for the past week. And probably for the next couple of weeks. I dont mind at all though, it makes life at home so much more bearable. I love her.
2.We brought Raine's cat Inty to my house along with Raine, because when shes not around no one feeds him. Also, we would both miss him. But on Saturday morning, he was meowing at the door, and my dad figured he should let him out, since hes an outdoor cat at Raine's.
As soon as i found out i woke Raine up. She was freakin distraught. Me too. We figured he had tried to run home, all the way across town. A 2 hour walk for people. That night i had a bunch of friends stay over at our house instead of Wolfy's because Raine wanted to be home and wait for Inty. By the time we went to bed he still hadnt come back. Around 4 oclock i woke up to pee, and as I was zipping up my pants i heard some meows. I figured it was just my imagination, because i had been doing that all day. Thinking i saw or heard Inty wherever i was, because it was partly my fault he got out. And i turned around to wash my hands and there he was sitting in the window sill looking at me with his huge green Kaweyes (im coining that term). I opened it up and brought him in to Raine, and she hugged him for like 5 minutes straight. Im glad hes back. I love that cat.
3.Math, im going to pass it.
4.Drawing a lot more. Its cool.
5.Going to Visit Penny in Pheonixville PA this weekend with The Vee and Raine. Im really excited, since ive been meaning to visit her for a while now. Its gonna be pretty sweet.

Thats it really.
All i can think of for now.
Ill edit later if there are more i think of.

Ta ta for now.
Love you bitches,
Colin

colin_mchatter @ 2008-02-01T10:04:00

2008-02-01T15:10:10Z

Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

Tagged by Wolfy with O.

1.O'Raine.
2.O'Friends
3.O'Wayfinder
4.O'Brien extended family (there crazy)
5.O'Pheonixville PA trip
6.O'Working things out
7.O'Art
8.O'Love
9.O'hugs
10.O'puppy piles

Im aloud to do that cause im awesome.

I REALLY neglect this

2008-01-29T04:36:49Z

So.
I havent posted in a long while.
But today was pretty eventful without being too eventful.
Today marks the start of a new Semester.
That means;
-I promised not to suck so much in photo
-Eilis is in my Bio Class
-Raine is in my Pool class (hopefully)
-Im considering dropping Algebra II after the midterm raped me bloody.

All of these things are pretty good actually!

Im also starting drivers ed. Which im not TOO excited about. But ill be able to get my senior license almost straight out of the course. Which is sweet.

OH!
Also
I won the Wayfinder Experience Valentine's Sockhop poster contest.
THAT MEANS
My Valentine and I can go for free!
Thats right ladies. Better ask me now.
8D

Also. I just finished my first tryout for Mistfall Oekaki. NEEERRRVVVVOOOUUUSSSS

I think thats it.
Yeah.
Im pretty sure thats it.
Also.
Raine.
Awesome.

Ok
now im done.
WOOT!@

Fuck reality.

2008-01-11T02:05:37Z

SO
This is my journal about perception
Reality. Perception of reality. Or, lack there of-- WHATEVER.
I just realized that by talking about it or writing it down, its much easier to further my comprehension.

So
This brainspasgasm trip started when my dad said
"I have an innate sense of fairness."
And i told him;
"You only have an innate sense of your PERCEPTION of fairness."

Not FAIRNESS, just the concept of fairness. Because thats all it is, a perception, a concept.
But
Thats all anything is isn't it?
A perception?

And it goes on like that for a while, arguing about fairness or the perception of it.

But then my dad asks why differentiate perception and reality, if all there is, is perception.
So perception IS our reality.

And at first i was like.... IUNNO WHY!

But i just BLAM wow.
So.
You have to differentiate, perception and reality, because. You cant have a perception without anything to perceive.

SO
THE CONCLUSION!
Either,

We exist entirely within our own minds. And all of you and all of everything doesnt actually exist, you are just products of my semi lucid subconscious mind.
(lame huh.)

ORRRR

There IS a reality, we just cant perceive it in its raw, unbiased form. So in reality; pardon; perceived reality, there are no absolute truths, NONE. PERIOD! Only those which we PERCEIVE to be true. Because our brains are subjective, and anything filtered through them is fundamentally skewed from it's absolute truth.

But.. SHIT.

Only because i perceive it that way?
I guess, both conclusions are impossible to prove either way.

But, Quantum Theory tells us that JUST by perceiving it we changed it...
So
Is this what they call a Quantum Loop?

::EDIT::

Ben, He is amazing.

GheoFabulousDuk (8:25:06 PM): I found a way out.
GheoFabulousDuk (8:25:10 PM): Know how it works?
supergir442 (8:24:14 PM): Stop thinking about it?
supergir442 (8:24:18 PM): Dyeing?
GheoFabulousDuk (8:25:31 PM): Nope.
GheoFabulousDuk (8:25:35 PM): Fall in love.

Fuck yeah much?
I like Ben.
A lot.
Because he made me realize, i didnt take ONE thing into account.
Raine.
She HAS to exsist.
There is no way in hell Raine cant exist.
"She makes it make sense."
~Ben Shwartz

Yeah!

2008-01-09T02:49:17Z

i steal masks (9:23:11 PM): My mum
i steal masks (9:23:14 PM): just took me into the room
i steal masks (9:23:16 PM): and had me explain
i steal masks (9:23:19 PM): you know
i steal masks (9:23:21 PM): unison
i steal masks (9:23:22 PM): and
i steal masks (9:23:25 PM): she was just like
i steal masks (9:23:37 PM): "I know you're ready and what you and Colin have is a beautiful thing" i steal masks (9:23:48 PM): "You're going to spend the rest of your lives together; I can see it." i steal masks (9:23:56 PM): And then lectured me a bit and complained
i steal masks (9:23:57 PM): But
i steal masks (9:24:02 PM): That's the important thing

LIFE?
SOOOOO GOOOD

Havent posted for a while...

2007-12-18T03:18:57Z

Wow ok.
So i really neglect my LJ.
WHATEVS.

So usually i just use this LJ to ANGST
But i haven't felt angsty for the last two weeks or so, so we'll see how this goes.

Im really excited for this Christmas.
Raine is gonna spend it at our house. Which pretty much makes it the best christmas ever to begin with.
And i think i nailed everyones gifts, which makes me much happier than i would have expected.
On Friday im having a bunch of people over to sled in my backyard, and hopefully have Rab Wolfy
and Raine sleep over. Cause us buddies need to chill really bad i realized yesterday.
Rob seems to be under the impression that hes a burden, or that hes in the background all the
time, and that he's simply an annoyance. LET ME TELL YOU that that is entirely un-true.
I love you Rob, stop being dumb. We all love you, and want you around.

Another close friend of mine that is being dumb is REI.
THATS RIGHT.
YOU DON'T HURT ANYONE BY BEING CHEERFUL AND WONDERFUL AND HAPPY AND LOVEY ALL THE TIME!
Just JEEZ listen to yourself. How in all hell does that make a TIDBIT of sense.
I LOVE YOUR COMPANY!
ENJOY IT!
THRIVE FOR IT EVEN!
SO SSSSSSSSHHHH
I LOVE YOU.

Hrrrmmmm.
Raine Raine Raine Raine Raine. I really love her a lot.
I don't even know how to make sense of it honestly.
Just being around her makes me happy.
I don't think we've had a SINGLE argument.
Maybe its because we've both been arguing with the famfam so much.
I DUNNO
I DUN CARE.
I dun even know what to say,
except that i hope her mom stops being dumb. Just, not in time for Christmas ;3

Been thinkin a lot lately.
Not the bad kind though.
Just thinkin.
I was thinkin today.
How we are all metaphor makers, and how on SOME LEVEL we all understand poetry. Its just a matter of reaching in and pulling it out. It truly is the universal language. Not to mention, the ultimate form of literary expression. Its a direct translation of whatever you are trying to vent, or get out, in a language everyone can understand on some level.
WOOT.

ALSO
If you are lacking something to get me for Christmas, PORKO ROSO and THE CAT RETURNS and my Miyazaki collection will be COMPLETE!

TURDS,
Colin

PS. I STILL LOVE RAINE ALOT ALOT.

colin_mchatter @ 2007-12-03T21:06:00

2007-12-04T03:44:30Z

Fuck.
Me and my dad had a fight/conversation/understanding/agreement, about trust, just about everything recently.
How I've been really drifting away from my family. Just because i contrast so much with them ya know.
But
He took that step.
He said that i could do whatever i want, but he needed to know where i was and when. Basically. But it wasn't just a surrender, which I'm glad about.
It was just like.
I'm taking this step for you. It makes me uncomfortable, but Ill deal. Your still my son, and no matter what happens, what mistakes you may make, ill stand by you, and make the best out of it.

Ive never been so happy.
Honest to god.
Never in my life.
Everything is just like... falling into place. Its a wonderful feeling.

Me and Raine too, Better than ever.
We've been opening up more and more.
Discussing things without reservations.
Its amazing.
I love her so much.

I need all my closest friends to know how much a really care about them.
Like, really truly appreciate and care about them.
You know who you are.

colin_mchatter @ 2007-11-28T21:38:00

2007-11-29T03:00:45Z

I stoled this frum Wolfu. Whom i love.

Step One - Make a post to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want. - If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. - Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ.

Step Two - Surf around your friendslist to see who has posted their list.

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special

My List:
1. A tablet
2. I really want a Rei made plushy, alot. I love her plushies so much
3. To spend some time on Christmas with my close friends, chillin in front of a fire, lovin eachother.
4. For Raine to get a good night sleep soon.
5. To fall asleep with Raine under a huge blanket
6. A fucking Laptop of my own.
7. People to to stop bugging Me, Wolfy, Eilis, Rob, and Raine about how we hang out "to much"
8. To pass Math this quarter
9. Sum arts from friends. Art from my friends is one of the things i cherish most. Whenever i look at it, i can think. A friend of mine, made this FOR ME, out of the kindness of there own heart, with there own hands. And a feel loved.
10. To be trusted enough among my close friends that they can tell me anything they have on their chest, and trust that i wont laugh or tattle, or accidently blab it. Thats what i wish most of all. Because ive noticed latley, even though we are so comfortable around eachother, and so close mentally and emotionally, we all have some trouble opening up to eachother.

Tagged along with this journal i attach an oath.

I swear that I will never withold any thought that depresses me, annoys me, angers me or otherwise irks me from my dearest friends, if they feel the need to inquire, unless such a time comes where it may break the trust I share with another.

OH YEAH ADRESS!

Colin O'Brien
188 Pearl St.
Kingston, NY 12401

Ok,
On with the journal.
So today, was a... mediocre day.
It promised to be mediocre at best when Raine didnt show up.
During computer imagery i checked my vitals, and boy am i glad i did.
I found a message from a distressed Raine, asking me to come over.
So i left early and grabbed my camera and headed out to Raines.
When i got there we immediatley set off on an adventure. An PHOTOGRAPHY adventure.
Then we got back and chilled for a while.
The Kraken has been really chill latley i noticed. Dont know why.
Dont really care.
But shes been really nice to both of us.

Me and Raine did.... things.
And then just snuggled for a long time and talked.
I hope to god things get better for her. I really do.
She of all people doesnt deserve all this flaming bullshit thats raining down upon her.

It was a well needed great end to a day all in all.

Oh,
but my computer is totally bunk.
The processer AND motherboard are fucking fried.
The two most EXPENSIVE pieces of hardware in the thing are the ones that have to go break.

I havent been able to stop listening to Rain of A Thousand Flames by Rhapsody, latley.
Its great. Its like... speedmetal, expect the actually sing, WELL. The chorus like chorus works perfectly with the feel of the song.
Go check it out.
http://radioblogclub.com/open/151437/rain_of_1000_flames/Rhapsody%20--%20Rain%20of%20a%20Thousand%20Flames

Anyways, i love Raine a whole lot.
JUST SO YALL KNOW.